I am tired of being treated as a second class citizen, of being the one who constantly sacrifices for everyone else. im the one who apologizes for my parents, im the one who begs for money from my gracious and graceful friends, imtech support,moral support, and spiritual support all rolled into one. and yet, im not good enough. im not allowed to speak my mind, not allowed to have my own opinions about things. if my mother is at her "breaking point", i must sit and listen or im a demon in human skin, a bastard as she will tell all who will listen. yet im being "overdramatic" and "childish" when i talk about killing myself, or how much i hurt emotionally,or hell, the time i was caught with my gun in my mouth because i couldn't handle this situation anymore. these people care for noone but themselves, even at the expense of everyone around them. they don't care that its fucking disgusting to use local churches for free stuff and money, they don't see the problem with panhandling when we don't actually need to. we aren't homeless, why would we use resources that could go to the homeless just because we don't have certain things? god forbid we fucking explore our more moral options, god fucking forbid we do the right thing. i fucking hate these people for being disgusting, amoral human garbage. and i hate myself for being complacent in it. this can continue no longer.